Saturday Evening's Are 'Fun'

It’s been ‘a while’ since I last penned down something and the reason being – not wanting to put my personal thoughts ‘out there’ for everyone to read and judge. Well, maybe I am overreacting a bit or it is just a bad case of social anxiety disorder. I was thinking I’ll do one of those ‘made-up’ posts – just to keep my ‘baby’ alive. I think I gave him a rather raw deal – and honestly I am surprised that he is still here after all this time. Typical of me - to start something and then to loose interest immediately.

Though I am not written expressive, I sometimes like to scribble about my day (like I sometimes think I was born in the wrong era, born to the wrong parents etc– rarely but it still happens) and I thought I would put this one online – suicidal I know, but what the heck. Ok – perhaps not the entire thing – an edited abridged version.

These days I am feeling slightly restless – a sense of craving has slowly taken control of my existence. It all started one fine morning last week when I decided to go on a detox plan. I knew I had to put a lid on my slightly out of control intoxication habits. With my new plan on - booze has come down from … err.. ‘no count’ to zero count .. and ciggys from 2 packets a day to 1 cig a week . Uplifting aint it? But the flip side is – I don’t know what to do with my ‘spare’ time. Bloody weekend seems to drag on and on. Its Saturday evening and I’m feeling a bit low sitting here in front on the comp and trying to harden my heart. But kambakt dil keeps telling me to sod the plan and get out of here.

Despite my born laziness I thought of going out and cheering myself with some Momos. But apparently there are no places here in Mangalore where I could get some. Disappointing start but that was not going to stop me from having some fun. So I decided to call my friends (cant really put the conversations here – last time I did that I got death threats hehe)

Mr. K – Usual girl friend troubles + now wife troubles –drinking alone.

Mr. A – Apparently was doing cyber with his gf last night and yet to .. err… recover.

Mr. M – At the movies.

Mr. S – Partying with friends. (Hope you’ll get arrested for public nuisance bastards)

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Ok – that’s it. Time: 7:00 pm – better I go home and turn in or tune in to radio – ‘easy listening for the pathetic ones’. Grr..